These updates have got to come more frequently, slowly turning into a monthly event, its hard to say i can remember vividly what has transpired in my absents.
Been sick 2 weeks now, on and off on and off. Have u ever had flu-ish phlegm in your lungs but only comes out through cough? Its 'wonderful' in so many ways.
The past weekend been spent living almost alone, parents gone away awhile and havin to do everything on my own. I think i can survive if I leave, but it wont be easy. Takes up more time than you wish it did.
Exams been over 2 weeks now, haven't begun all the goals i set to achieve, been sick the whole time like i mentioned before. But a lot of things get clearer once your sick, so many petty and unnecessary things get filtered through sickly eyes.
Well back to you my Angel, every month you make me love u more, through all adversities you may be hurt inside, but you never stop smiling, Your strength is my greatest inspiration, for hope of a better future. You weren't stubborn, your were tough. You weren't weak, you were humble. And your amazing for who you are, Your Beautiful..
Things are going back to normal after the tournament, but somethings will never change back, like and unfortunate friend that ruptured 3 of his tendons. Good luck buddy.
What can I say besides I love you, those words represent almost everything that is needed to be said, for it means what it means only between us. The 18th of this month marked a day I wont ever forget last year. I bet u wont too ;-)..
With all my heart, I Love You :-*
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Been an amazing 2 weeks
Sorry this took so long, but its been an amazing 2 weeks we spent together, every morning wishing each other, virtually spending 14 days together non-stop, tell the truth i thought i would have gotten bored of it, but instead 2 days on and i'm already missing it.
Been a great start to the holidays as the 1st day was the day we hung out, been 2 months since we had a day for our own. Sure things are messy, sure timing may not be perfect. But at least i got to visit you, know you better, and had great fun together.
A few days on, you were close to givin up hope, din't thought you would though, and you dint. You fought on and now you have your place. Now you're part of something you thought you din belong. Why doubt yourself, when you know its been done before, you can do it again.
2nd week of the holidays. Spend the 1st week amazingly, everything hoped for, prayed for all came true. But a road block was coming up, a doubt bout us hanging out loomed again. But faith is usually rewarded. A day or 2 passed and a Deus Ex Machina was evident, we had finally struck GOLD. A chance of a lifetime, fair to say, we never wasted that one, we couldn't afford to, we din't wanted to.
Summing up the pass two weeks would be impossible, for all the sweet and wonderful memories engraved in our mind forever will stay long and dear in my heart. But know this, whatever you had doubt over, whenever you felt down and out. I'm always here if u need a hand to hold you up, a shoulder to lean when you fall, a heart to share if your lonely.
Love is the only thing I may give you for now, and it shall be Love that I will never stop giving to you. For I know you have already given me yours.
Been a great start to the holidays as the 1st day was the day we hung out, been 2 months since we had a day for our own. Sure things are messy, sure timing may not be perfect. But at least i got to visit you, know you better, and had great fun together.
A few days on, you were close to givin up hope, din't thought you would though, and you dint. You fought on and now you have your place. Now you're part of something you thought you din belong. Why doubt yourself, when you know its been done before, you can do it again.
2nd week of the holidays. Spend the 1st week amazingly, everything hoped for, prayed for all came true. But a road block was coming up, a doubt bout us hanging out loomed again. But faith is usually rewarded. A day or 2 passed and a Deus Ex Machina was evident, we had finally struck GOLD. A chance of a lifetime, fair to say, we never wasted that one, we couldn't afford to, we din't wanted to.
Summing up the pass two weeks would be impossible, for all the sweet and wonderful memories engraved in our mind forever will stay long and dear in my heart. But know this, whatever you had doubt over, whenever you felt down and out. I'm always here if u need a hand to hold you up, a shoulder to lean when you fall, a heart to share if your lonely.
Love is the only thing I may give you for now, and it shall be Love that I will never stop giving to you. For I know you have already given me yours.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Fighting back as always
Been sick for 3 days, Surprise symptoms of flu, but non the treatable.
Learned to see the finer side of life, without health, all emotions is just a game of our mind, being happy is easier than most people could ever accept.
Been a great day, from start till end, Got a netbook, webcam with my sweetheart, sat with my sweetheart, giggled with my sweetheart. A day havent felt or seen in ages.
Life is so amazing when you look at it from the bottom of the barrel, everything becomes a blessing, reality as you may see, is a gift of life.
Just live on and hope and pray for the best, like the Lady who won the race in the finish line today (I cant remember where and who), nothing is over till it crosses the finish line.
Learned to see the finer side of life, without health, all emotions is just a game of our mind, being happy is easier than most people could ever accept.
Been a great day, from start till end, Got a netbook, webcam with my sweetheart, sat with my sweetheart, giggled with my sweetheart. A day havent felt or seen in ages.
Life is so amazing when you look at it from the bottom of the barrel, everything becomes a blessing, reality as you may see, is a gift of life.
Just live on and hope and pray for the best, like the Lady who won the race in the finish line today (I cant remember where and who), nothing is over till it crosses the finish line.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Not a day to remember
After such a long while, after all the new things that happen, finally securing a place here and there, yet another thing slips through the cracks.
All the quizzes and projects keep piling up, smart asses show their really just dumb asses, the time for truth is around the corner, not soon before long a new hierarchy saw arise again.
It seems to be devastating that in 2 days, a mood, a feeling, a passion can change. As recent as a Sunday, a new landmark was achieved, a testament to our strength & our bond. But nt all things last long enough to be enjoyed.
I simply pray its a thought, a thought derived from hate, form dissatisfaction beyond all comprehension, these 'friends' these o so wonderful friends, they do nothing but get in the way, they do nothing but cause more drag, more weight, more burden. Now i know why dating is a 2 person thing, its never meant to include the opinion or presence of another, especially if she is a pest to begin with, a failure of a new magnitude.
Maybe its the pressure, maybe im a jerk, I might be overbearing and smother u. Bt when u think bout it, my life is starting to feel like im just single, seems to be the saddest thought i had in a year. Sorry
All the quizzes and projects keep piling up, smart asses show their really just dumb asses, the time for truth is around the corner, not soon before long a new hierarchy saw arise again.
It seems to be devastating that in 2 days, a mood, a feeling, a passion can change. As recent as a Sunday, a new landmark was achieved, a testament to our strength & our bond. But nt all things last long enough to be enjoyed.
I simply pray its a thought, a thought derived from hate, form dissatisfaction beyond all comprehension, these 'friends' these o so wonderful friends, they do nothing but get in the way, they do nothing but cause more drag, more weight, more burden. Now i know why dating is a 2 person thing, its never meant to include the opinion or presence of another, especially if she is a pest to begin with, a failure of a new magnitude.
Maybe its the pressure, maybe im a jerk, I might be overbearing and smother u. Bt when u think bout it, my life is starting to feel like im just single, seems to be the saddest thought i had in a year. Sorry
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Finally we won one back^^
Its been a long long time coming, merciful god has granted us the deed we dreamt of for almost an eternity already.. I truly am Emphatic over this victory.. A great celebratory joy^^.
The 1st time in more than an odd year.. We had the chance to train together.. Face to face with one another.. Seeing as if you were glowing with an aura.. Ur beauty still astounds me to this day.. My Heart races when I look into your eyes.. I feel as if you are sharing with me your soul.
Your smile like beauty ive never imagined.. A sight of joy beyond anything I could dream.. A warmth and comfort only true Love may bring.
Sweetheart today is our day.. No matter what happens today will still be in our hearts.. As the day we took one back from the demons.. The day we stood triumph when hope was so scarce.. I thank you for being there for me.. I thank you for having found me.. I thank you for Loving Me ^^
XOXO
The 1st time in more than an odd year.. We had the chance to train together.. Face to face with one another.. Seeing as if you were glowing with an aura.. Ur beauty still astounds me to this day.. My Heart races when I look into your eyes.. I feel as if you are sharing with me your soul.
Your smile like beauty ive never imagined.. A sight of joy beyond anything I could dream.. A warmth and comfort only true Love may bring.
Sweetheart today is our day.. No matter what happens today will still be in our hearts.. As the day we took one back from the demons.. The day we stood triumph when hope was so scarce.. I thank you for being there for me.. I thank you for having found me.. I thank you for Loving Me ^^
XOXO
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Live for Life? Or Live to live?
If there is motion, there is bound to be friction. I say this coming from a long stem of existence.. seemingly going on day by day like clockwork, routine and mundane task laying waste to all expressions within the mind.. Leaving an empty shell.. Thoughtless, Expressionless, Emotionless, Useless.
Forgetting the purpose of all my goals is a tragedy in its own sense, slowly fading away the brimming dreams once so close to my heart, left only with the ravages life is yet to take form this weary soul.
I recently learned, it doesn't take a big day to change your life forever, because true to fact is, everyday is a bigger day, the only easy day was yesterday.
Today is a day of renewed faith, in myself, in my believe, in my Love. You really make it real for me. I Love You form the bottom of my heart in everyway i could possibly think of..
But from today the only thing we can do sometimes in life is to just Let It Be
Forgetting the purpose of all my goals is a tragedy in its own sense, slowly fading away the brimming dreams once so close to my heart, left only with the ravages life is yet to take form this weary soul.
I recently learned, it doesn't take a big day to change your life forever, because true to fact is, everyday is a bigger day, the only easy day was yesterday.
Today is a day of renewed faith, in myself, in my believe, in my Love. You really make it real for me. I Love You form the bottom of my heart in everyway i could possibly think of..
But from today the only thing we can do sometimes in life is to just Let It Be
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Curse or Inner Demons?
Its been one week only from my last update, as fittingly like clockwork, something went wrong again.
Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.
This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..
Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..
I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..
Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.
This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..
Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..
I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..
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