Curse or Inner Demons?

Its been one week only from my last update, as fittingly like clockwork, something went wrong again.

Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.

This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..

Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..

I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..

Been 3 months.. kinda an eternity

Been almost an eternity since i've updated this blog, so many events passed since the last time.

A new semester is coming already, been kinda exhausting the last one, too rapid fire to cope, did not as well as i knew i could. Hope this time things will be different.

This Chinese New Year was kinda special and all that insignificant as well. A new atmosphere to enjoy, yet lost a tradition close to heart.

One the other side of life, an amazing time has passed, we've gotten so much so much more stronger, kinda enjoyed quite a romantic ride in our trip to Hard Rock Hotel, thanks to Aunt Mei..

Our love blossomed, carried forth a new dawn after a mild tide of darkness cascaded upon us, we thought we had lost it, that we we're stale and withering. Thank the holy god for the holidays^^

Had kinda a mass gathering to watch Alice in Wonderland also, truth be told, it was very nice and it reminded me of my youth n being silly.^^

Lifes been a bit different lately, learned to keep the bad things away, why waste brain cells pondering over unrelenting medial complications when they are not worth the hassle.

Moved to a new place, kinda twice the size of the 1st home. Can't imagine how sad I am of leaving there, but I was gonna have to leave sooner or later, lucky i got to still stay in Penang only.

Only hope I can spend the rest of my days making her the joyful person she truely is, help her lift this chip off her shoulder, or at least help her carry her burdens.. Being loved by my sweetheart is one of the greatest treasures and grandest gifts i could ever hope to receive. N i try everyday, for her to feel how i feel back.. Love You