I'm Sorry.. You know I love you rite?

This post is fully and sincerely dedicated to my beloved, I know I usually behave like a jerk, Act like an asshole, And conduct like a bastard. But you always stick by me.

I know life has been tough, Like the earth is splitting and you just can't find your ground, and one way or another people keep snatching it away from you time and time again. Unforgiving is reality, treacherous is life. But in a few weeks time, it will all be a distant memory, a tall tale told to those who are fortunate enough to hear you spin this yarn.

I truly am sorry, to kick you when you are down, to suffocate you when you drown. I mean no harm in my ways of expressions, yet compulsion and obsession tends to get the better of me when i lack contemplation in my actions.

I pray as well, that your burden may be shared amongst all that indeed hold you dear to their hearts, even though it may seem you are all alone, angels linger amongst your presence, forever shining the path onward and forth, trying times may we challenge the hardiness of our souls.

I kid you not with literature and poetry in this post, for my mind may only express itself in ways only you should understand. I love you my dear, all apologizes, all for forgiveness, as i pass on my condolences for this torment you have been put through this year. But hold your ground, the hour is near, and onward shall come the dawn of day through the dark of night.

I just pray, when the dust settles, in an eon that will past, we are still one. As I can sing this tune to you, when the hairs on your head fade to gray.



My love, I can give you nothing, but my heart. Forever and always, your hopeful husband

XOXO

This aint my week

Been a long long week, kinda not my favourite to say least.

Started the week after coming bak from a nice hiking trip, went to college 3 hours early cause I forgot class starts at 1. Went training and waited till 7 30 to start, not more than half a dozen adults, and 3 blackbelts to boot.

2nd day wasnt that bad, brought my brother to visit my aunt one last time. She was not so well anymore.

3rd day was a treat at the start, a bit more fun here and there. Nite time however was not as joyous, my aunt passed in the evening.

4th day in college sucked, not much happened, ceremonies from the cult began, just went along with it.

5th day, my birthday eve, went trainin less than an hour tat nite, loved her gift and the note. The nite wasnt so well, went bak very late, got lost in the darkness, lucky came bak fine.

6th day,my Birthday, well wishes from friends and a heartfelt one from my sweetheart. Dino went missing starting this day of all days. Went to the ceremony for last call, assholes were on our backs for 'helping out', like i haven't done enough u bastards. The whole day wasnt filled with much. My darling took her singapore test though, she din get it, kinda very glad but kinda sad><. Hope shes fine with the results.

7th day, woke up 6 50 n got ready, attended the funeral, things went on n evryone cried, well almost.. 11 16 moved out. Cremation was an hour later. May she Rest In Peace. Tried out the cult, insanity from formality, bowed 50 odd times in 5 mins. Mom quarreled with my bastard uncle over money she lend him, it aint a small amount.

This week ended in a not so spectacular way. My Bday spend in mourning, lost an aunt, cat still MIA, uncle reviewed hes near bankrupt, saw the ugly side of my 2nd aunt, and can basicly conclude 80% of family suck.

Fought with my darling out of stress and frustration. I'm so sorry dear. Hope with all my heart and faith, this week aint like the last. I love you.

Been a long while

Its the 5th of September, one day after my Birthday kinda not much had happened. :(

But still, my darling cheered up a gloomy me, the best way she knows how to, Making me smile^^. Thank you honey, Love you so much for the gift and the effort :-*

Been a long long 2 months, keeping patience for a brighter tomorrow, not gonna say its been bad and whine, actually its been great with all the new freedom. But i miss the times we are together as 2, rather than the time we represent 20><

Got my results for the previous semester, lousy to say the least, nearly lost my scholarship due to how naive I was thinking I could do it all, I cant, but at least Im getting better at it. But this time things might be different.

Went to Monkey Beach last month, 1st time a trip was that fun in a long long time, my dear wanted to belong and im sure she would have if she came to this trip. The beaches were amazing, nothing you can get near civilization, the distance is not that close on foot and not so far on boat^^, but a place is fun for who you spend time with, not where you spend time at.

On a sadder note, My youngest aunt on my moms side past away after fighting cancer for half a year. Rest In Peace, may you find joy where you have not known in the here after, we will miss you.

Brings a werid twist to life, a strange new flavour to new things never had before. But non the less, The beat goes on..