Live free, Die Hard

Life is about how you can play each moment as your advantage, chess is a thousand year old cause no game can represent life the way it does.

That is why i am more happy on no other day than Christmas Eve.. a true miracle of a day blessed by the gods. Once a year or even more rare. I can't be grateful, happy, elated, delighted or blissful enough it materialized before the end of a decade.

People say there is always next year, well the next decade is looming too, hope I can spend this eve with my lover again. Fingers crossed.

By the 20s, its either Get Rich or Die Tryin.. See you then ;)

The year is almost up with 5 days till Christmas

Took a while but reached my 30th post, been another month, not as bad as the last one, but kinda interesting to say the least.

Had a few new experiences & different kinds of new joys. Also spend 4k on computing stuff, and that is alot of money, believe me.

Went on a sort of weird but still very enjoyable & even more memorable date with my 'panda/piggy^^', and don't worry, life is about ups and downs right?

Been an amazing month, made up for most of the year we suffered, just wholeheartedly wish we can end it with a bang ;)

In football terms though, can't believe the sheer delight at watching Liverpool 8th in the table & out of the Champions League. Suck it Reds..

Recently just came back from a trip to Genting Highlands, possibly one of the worse trips of my life, but being in such a rut made me appreciate LIFE, MONEY, and MY DARLING way more than before i left. So its not all lost.

At least the high points were my 1st time riding a roller coaster, bumper cars, bowling, and the trip through Ripleys Believe It or Not.

Bought 2 very memorable items back from my 1st gift shop shopping experience though, got to say i really really like them.

7 inch replica of the runeblade Frostmourne

And a tiny pair of Panda's

Medical Sickness

What is surprising is how often and easily we forget the signs that we seen before.

Having fallen ill yet again, i cannot begin to regret how i failed to spot the signs of this looming illness creeping up upon me.

The ill feelings of emotional instability and physical stings are a precursor of my most common problem, high fever with flu. I'm so sorry to those i had acted poorly against due to this distortion of judgement.

Ironic enough, this was all due to poor management, considering I'm taking 2 subjects corresponding to management this semester.

Oncoming workload of projects, trips, studies, all done with the same draining and time wasting lifestyle i have harbored for the last 10 weeks. Finally the final blow is struck and I am going into another exam shot up on drugs and carrying endless rolls of tissue to clear my nose.

All i can hope for now is its not swineflu.

Chronic Depression

Depression arises from feeling helpless or being unable to solve an issue that is saddening.

Its a vicious & horrible cycle that reinforces ill thoughts, a person without a level mind or help will indeed take their own life.

Recently the German national goalkeeper threw himself infront of a train, he was grieving from his daughters death, thats where the cycle begins.

Luckily i have a mind that can play through the whole cycle from suicide to funeral n how its not worth it to die^^

But this depression seems to be taking its toll on my ability to socially interact, im getting more impatient, more needy, and much much more of a liability in many sense. How will this cycle cease, i'm still in the nt knw. Hopefully i can solve it soon.

We are all Law Abiding Citizens.. rite?

Well this is a very late post, but from this movie i saw about a week ago, I learned a few things.

1. You are innocent until 'really' proven guilty
2. The law protect those who know how to use it
3. Torture is fun
4. Metal is the choice music for stabbing
5. Being on-time is very important in life
6. Things are never what they seem to be, no matter how sure you think you are
   
7. If living has no purpose, Dying for something works just as well

If life doesn't give you justice doesn't mean you can't take it for your own. But knowing that you cross from revenge to committing your own sin, is very ambiguous.

Threat carefully...

23rd October 2009, What a journey it has been, What a journey it is going to be^^

Its been a long time since I updated, but a lot of things have gone by, yet very little is worth mentioning.

Handed up a real headache of an assignment, finished moral course awaiting results, exams coming by in a month, new plans for the future, and 2 wonderful days out with my honey that is memorable to say the least.

But the most significant of all events would likely be today, 23rd of October 2009.

5 months on, we have enjoyed all the wonders and joys of being in Love, from humble beginnings of being just close friends, to not being able to live without you. We have endured countless trials and tribulations that only made our bond stronger, nothing i believe is stronger than True Love, and the resolve always reveals itself at the very last end hope.

Admittedly, i nearly gave up hope a few times before, but seeing u never faltering in the face of adversity made me all that stronger, and now here we are today^^

All I can say is Thank You, and I LOVE You, more than i thought i would, more than i thought i ever could.

Encountered this by luck.. Really consider myself lucky for finding this^^

梅艷芳 - 夕陽之歌

Thank you for sticking by me, N never letting go^^

Thank you my sweet sweet darling.. For sticking by me and being there for me..

When i couldn't Stand, You Held Me Up.. When i couldn't Talk, You Help Me Speak.. When i couldn't See, You Shine Me The Way..

If it wasn't for you.. Life would have sucked worse than i could handle.. I Love You n I really thank god You Love Me too.^^

It has been done

Dealing with a demon like my neighbour, I needed more than natural causes..

I needed the supernatural and the superstitious, matched with logic and patience, the battle ensues..

The first step has been taken and now we are going to resolve this somehow, but it won't remain idle anymore..

Don't know why

After all the joyous things that happen since the last update..

After Sept 5 in KL..

After Prom Night in Gurney Hotel n heading to F.A.M.E on Upper Penang Road on Sept 12th.. made new friends.. took kinda a lot of photos.. dance like crazy.. drank till face din't have feeling.. It was 11 cup i think..

Great times.. REALLY GREAT TIMES..

But I'm updating on one of my lowest days of the month..><

Like the title said.. I still have no idea why but i'm still really worn out.. broken down again.. lost most of hope somehow..

Maybe its the road problems.. The car dents and scratches.. Maybe its the fat bitch that forced me to reverse into the main road.. Maybe its the FUCKING RETARDED BITCH ASS neighbour that keeps annoying my mother and constantly causing us emotional stress..

But I hope I can feel better soon.. Somehow

Turning 18..

Officially 18 years old a few minutes ago in GMT +8 time.. 4th September

In a short span of life, I got a lot of things that i thought couldn't be done in time completed in a surprising matter.. Here is a list of them

1. Learned to ride bicycle
2. Learned to ride motorcycle and finally got a license
3. Got car license
4. Got best grades in SPM in both sides of family(vanity showing)
5. Got my blackbelt(still 1st Dan, but good enough)
   
6. Finished alot of great games(except FF IX still on it after 7 years)
   
7. Went on a real 1st date
   
8. After all those years of searching, finally found my real soulmate
9. Fell in true love (you know who)
10. Had 1st Kiss (same person)
    

So, with the dawn of a new day, I only hope and pray that Life goes on as once before but only getting better each day.

Hope can be in it for the long run with my Darling Sweetheart Daydreamer and get a better standing in college in more than just results.

Lastly, truely pray deep down that the Health, Fortune and Well being of the people I know and Love live long and Prosper.

Good Night..

You would think Ive already seen rock bottom

Today wasn't the best day of my life.. failed my bike test the moment i on the engine.. knew i wasn't fit enough to pull it off..

Still kinda sick from the weekends.. terrible condition..

Came back home and the computer proved it was dying a slow death.. tried every possible solution.. but the only answer is more spending..

Night time looming around and received a msg of ill news.. Now going on a break with my beloved panda bear cause her dad in getting volatile.. Truely hope it doesn't just end like this..

I'm pretty sure this is rock bottom.. So the next way is up..

Weary Minds and Tired Souls

In a weeks time.. Reality has once again forced its remorseless hand upon us by which only in dreams can they be true.. No mercy is to be spared to the soul who wishes for good will..

A 26/7/09 Sunday morning of Bliss turns to a Nightmarish Hell at night in a matter of just short moments like scenes in a movie.. As if the world wasn't volatile enough for our rendetion..

Dealing with cause after cause with clause after clause.. allotted with dues unpaid form the past.. spending days and nights striving for comprehension of amassing a basic 100cc bike that of which i can carry with my bare hands..

Facing ghostly ghouls howling from the foregone.. mixed feelings of blessing and curse from an earlier endeavour which sorely turned sour in matter of moments.. But merely sheer stubborness was enough to keep the flames of hell risen and lid..

Now far down this road today.. Bearings of pain forcing its spin upon me.. Presenting an open invitation of deception into laid traps for the foolhardy to toll upon.. Draining the very fiber of being left in the mind to fight on as bravely as before.. Leaving nothing but remnants of history to give comfort to an inevitable losing battle against the odds..

Hoping you will be strong enough to carry on as I have stalled for the moment.. Hoping i may arisen to continue behind you once again.. Or succumb toll of time and fade into the empty halls of What could have been or Might have become..

I pray with the bottom of my heart light shines upon darkness.. but for now.. we submit to the grasp blindness and wander ourselves wayward..

As you said.. NeVeR GiVe Up... NeVer Back DoWn

Cause Indeed To Us Nothing Else Matters...

18 July 2008.. A day for my history book

A few days late on the post, but went to Bon Odori on Sat.. with my friends.. Meet my Sweetheart there.. as well as a few long lost friends.. including one that looks like Fabio now ><..

Never saw fireworks so up close before.. sounded like grenade launchers going off one by one.. Stood so close, had to sleep flat on the floor to see them overhead.. Bt I also had someone in my arms for that wonderful moment..

Spent most of the night gazing into the sea from the coast line, sat on the barrier.. nothing but the cool sea breeze in my hair.. and my warm comforting darling wrapped around my arms..

Spent the rest of the night almost the same way.. Standing still here and there.. with a crowd that big.. there was little point of going so far when what you wanted was so close..

Had a great night.. cause what matters is the little things.. like flowers.. cuddling.. and explosives from ancient China

P.S : Sorry to my friend for being bored to tears with me.. Treat him to a movie next time..

Waves changed the landscape again

Here i thought i was riding a tide taking me where i wished to go, but sudden pattern shifts left me wondering where i'm at once again..

New avenues have been opened and previous ones have been closed for good, problem is if i commit to these, will i drown when the tide shifts yet again..

I mean i spent so many hours searching and confirming that i have moved in the right one this time.. SO maybe its just a temporary set back and the truth will come out again..

But i never really liked what i got myself into anyway, here now and way before..

So why not just keep going and not look back, i'm still alive right?

Reality Bites Back

After a whole month and more of just joy and bliss, reality comes back to haunt me for my past.

In the past month, i've dwelled deep into my own world, a place where i had only my thoughts to worry about.

But recent events have slowly revealed themselves as a collective burden built upon by negligence, I can no longer just float around like I did with you, for I have left Earth because of you.

Slowly finding footing back and i'm gonna have to hit the ground running.

Just din't thought something like that would affect me so strong ><..

May The King Rest In Peace

Michael Jackson passed away on 26th June 2009, a tragic day for the whole world, losing an icon, a legend, an immortal..

Made famous by his Thriller album, selling 100 million copies world wide



As The King of Pop, he will forever be missed for his weird Style, Crotch grabs, Silver Glove and White Socks..

All joking aside, a true legend of our generation may no longer be here for the next..

But his legacy will forever live on..

Long Live The King!!

Music, an expression of Life

Here is a beetles song that describes how i feel when i see you after A Hard Days Night

And the other one is a Celine Dion song featured in Love Guru, its a lovely song and even more lovely to make fun of ^.^

Your my Angel

I have never felt about you the way i felt for anyone else..

If it weren't for you.. Life would have meant little to nothing.. Before we were together you were the most important friend to me.. Now that we are together.. You are the most important person alive to me..

Honey, I LOVE You more than i thought i could ever love anyone.. Because i do believe you are the girl i have been waiting for..^^

Do You Believe In Magic?

You know when they say turning water into wine is the world of GOD..

Then in the span of 3 days, i did myself a work of divine magnitude as well..

1st was a small leap to a great new height..

2nd was a sudden thrust of greatness.. a heavenly moment undefinable in words..

3rd was the utmost true to form of beauty.. A work of art to the Soul.. The feeling of being of absolute certainty that what is before me is reality.. not just air.. but concrete.. a true testament to our bond.

In this short moment.. you have shown me Love.. Magic as it may seem..

Joy to The World.. or at least mine

No one knows where we may find what we want.. most of the time we don't even know what we want..

But unmistakeably When You Find It.. You Know You Have It..

I say Life is cliche because history repeats itself..

Just remember to take the Russian side..

The joys of gambling payouts

Taking big risks is never part of my MO.. but making a leap of faith i.e Jumping off a plane without a Parachute is something we would love to do once in a while..

Recent risks taken by me have proven great yields in the form of a new 'friendship' developed myself and one of my closest companions..

So the moment of truth has come now.. Will i be saved or will i be scrapped off the sidewalk ..

Quotes

Several great quotes that I've learned recently.. here's a few of them

1)After you eliminate the IMPOSSIBLE, the IMPROBABLE becomes the ONLY POSSIBLE answer.

2)If its not IMPOSSIBLE, it is still PROBABLE.

3)You may not be DEFEATED, but you may still LOSE.

Manchester United 18th time Champions.. Suck it Liverpool

Glory to Manchester United for winning the Barclays Premier League 2008/2009 season.

Having won the Carling Cup and The Toyota World Club Cup they are one match away from making history by retaining their Champions League title.

Sell Out.. for the Right Price

Its astounding how we frequently and brazenly we sell our SOUL for the very essence of life itself..

We often hold high regards for the sake of pulling them down and feeling disgusted with our very nature.. But then again.. it is our nature..

Everything has a price.. those who choose not to sell.. latch upon their virtues like a sinking ship disappearing from the horizon..

My actions may not be the admirable.. but they are the most profitable in almost any sense..

Kanye West the GAY FISH

As the title says.. One of Kanye West best songs and a public announcement in its own right..

He is GAYFISH right here..

Lyrics are on the side..

Boys this took a while..

Just wanted to note this down, a simple but inspiring quote i saw from 'The International"

The quote was.. "If you cannot get out of a problem, you go further in." Or something close to that effect, i'm paraphrasing..

The past month has been a weird one.. set new records.. dusted off old relics.. achieved new heights.. stoop new lows..

Still wondering how in the world i'm gonna get my Deus Ex Machina, but im getting ready for the flood gates to open.. regardlessly..

Oh well the more i lose the wiser i will be to win..

This is a song i found recently.. though its quiet old.. it deserves a view..

What Is Love? by Haddaway

Watchmen REALLY GOOD...

From the trailers you would never have anticipated an incredibly cerebral movie discussing about current affairs from past issues.. The story form the comic is marvelous and amazing to a non fan before the movie like me..

Here are some spoilers to explain the greatness of this movie..

1)John F. Kennedy was assassinated by The Comedian

2)Richard Nixon is serving his 3rd term as President of the USA.. ><"

3)Unforgettable playing in the background when The Comedian was being assassinated

4)The Sound of Silence playing in the background of The Comedians death.. which ironically is a tribute song to Kennedy

5)The Comedian seriously punching a protester and injuring a few more for their any hero protest.. an incredible sight in my opinion.. useless peace loving retards

6)Rorschach proclaiming "I'm not locked in here with you, YOU'RE LOCKED IN HERE WITH ME"

7)Vietnam is a state to America

8)Dr. Manhattan is almost a god.. thus doesn't consider pants a requirement

9)The things we do that are morally gray for the Greater Good

10)The Times Are A Changin by Bob Dylan.. it must be the greatest reference for the New World Order we are experiencing in reality..

And the above is just 10 of a HUGE list of reasons not to miss this.. and if you claimed the movie was bad.. your probably as intelligent as a box of raisins.. that went sour a year ago.. SERIOULY

Landing 101 and some stuff

In this short segment i would like to discuss about landing.. under any circumstances whenever u jump.. metaphorically or literally.. You must be very sure of how you are going to land.. If not.. Then you're looking forward to a rearrangement of some features..

A very hard lesson i learned today is how easy it is to fall flat on your face.. in terms of physically leaping great lengths and heights.. Attempting to study everything in one go.. or in a relationship.. friendly or romantic.. ALOT of things will blow up in your face just for the heck of it..

This post has been very negative till this point.. so here is some enlightening facts.. what ever happens today has been in the making a long while ago..

Examples of my chaos theory is piling up school work../catching a cold../even getting the red light.. Come On.. Its been green since you saw it.. did u expect it to remain green when u get there?

Building strong foundations is always the key.. even if it takes you 3 years to get to phase 2.. at least you got that far.. So I am thankful for the fun that was granted to me for the past month.. but reality is catching up and the past is back to haunt once again..

So in accordance to a quote from The Reader.. "Its not whether its morally correct or not.. Its whether its legal or not.. at that moment.. cause laws change too right?" I am forever changed by that and i believe you should too..

So my hands are dirty and I'm knee deep in crap.. START DIGGING

Why here why now

God knows why i actually chase after forsaken tracks that always leads to no where.

Here is my sort of non abusive introduction, I'm a sort of Out Of Mind guy dwelling in meagre existents, not really an influence in anyway, rarely appreciated, relatively unknown and living in others shadow just because i have grown to accept it.

Bet i sound like a swell guy to get to know better huh? Well to tell the truth, all of the above has given me more hope to live fruitfully cause i have nothing to lose in life, have fun, cheer up, not everyone gets to live like there is no tomorrow, and i bet your one of them too..

Raise your beer mugs and cling your glasses, its fun time..