You would think Ive already seen rock bottom

Today wasn't the best day of my life.. failed my bike test the moment i on the engine.. knew i wasn't fit enough to pull it off..

Still kinda sick from the weekends.. terrible condition..

Came back home and the computer proved it was dying a slow death.. tried every possible solution.. but the only answer is more spending..

Night time looming around and received a msg of ill news.. Now going on a break with my beloved panda bear cause her dad in getting volatile.. Truely hope it doesn't just end like this..

I'm pretty sure this is rock bottom.. So the next way is up..

Weary Minds and Tired Souls

In a weeks time.. Reality has once again forced its remorseless hand upon us by which only in dreams can they be true.. No mercy is to be spared to the soul who wishes for good will..

A 26/7/09 Sunday morning of Bliss turns to a Nightmarish Hell at night in a matter of just short moments like scenes in a movie.. As if the world wasn't volatile enough for our rendetion..

Dealing with cause after cause with clause after clause.. allotted with dues unpaid form the past.. spending days and nights striving for comprehension of amassing a basic 100cc bike that of which i can carry with my bare hands..

Facing ghostly ghouls howling from the foregone.. mixed feelings of blessing and curse from an earlier endeavour which sorely turned sour in matter of moments.. But merely sheer stubborness was enough to keep the flames of hell risen and lid..

Now far down this road today.. Bearings of pain forcing its spin upon me.. Presenting an open invitation of deception into laid traps for the foolhardy to toll upon.. Draining the very fiber of being left in the mind to fight on as bravely as before.. Leaving nothing but remnants of history to give comfort to an inevitable losing battle against the odds..

Hoping you will be strong enough to carry on as I have stalled for the moment.. Hoping i may arisen to continue behind you once again.. Or succumb toll of time and fade into the empty halls of What could have been or Might have become..

I pray with the bottom of my heart light shines upon darkness.. but for now.. we submit to the grasp blindness and wander ourselves wayward..

As you said.. NeVeR GiVe Up... NeVer Back DoWn

Cause Indeed To Us Nothing Else Matters...