Curse or Inner Demons?

Its been one week only from my last update, as fittingly like clockwork, something went wrong again.

Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.

This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..

Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..

I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..