Medical Sickness

What is surprising is how often and easily we forget the signs that we seen before.

Having fallen ill yet again, i cannot begin to regret how i failed to spot the signs of this looming illness creeping up upon me.

The ill feelings of emotional instability and physical stings are a precursor of my most common problem, high fever with flu. I'm so sorry to those i had acted poorly against due to this distortion of judgement.

Ironic enough, this was all due to poor management, considering I'm taking 2 subjects corresponding to management this semester.

Oncoming workload of projects, trips, studies, all done with the same draining and time wasting lifestyle i have harbored for the last 10 weeks. Finally the final blow is struck and I am going into another exam shot up on drugs and carrying endless rolls of tissue to clear my nose.

All i can hope for now is its not swineflu.

Chronic Depression

Depression arises from feeling helpless or being unable to solve an issue that is saddening.

Its a vicious & horrible cycle that reinforces ill thoughts, a person without a level mind or help will indeed take their own life.

Recently the German national goalkeeper threw himself infront of a train, he was grieving from his daughters death, thats where the cycle begins.

Luckily i have a mind that can play through the whole cycle from suicide to funeral n how its not worth it to die^^

But this depression seems to be taking its toll on my ability to socially interact, im getting more impatient, more needy, and much much more of a liability in many sense. How will this cycle cease, i'm still in the nt knw. Hopefully i can solve it soon.

We are all Law Abiding Citizens.. rite?

Well this is a very late post, but from this movie i saw about a week ago, I learned a few things.

1. You are innocent until 'really' proven guilty
2. The law protect those who know how to use it
3. Torture is fun
4. Metal is the choice music for stabbing
5. Being on-time is very important in life
6. Things are never what they seem to be, no matter how sure you think you are
   
7. If living has no purpose, Dying for something works just as well

If life doesn't give you justice doesn't mean you can't take it for your own. But knowing that you cross from revenge to committing your own sin, is very ambiguous.

Threat carefully...