Been sick for 3 days, Surprise symptoms of flu, but non the treatable.
Learned to see the finer side of life, without health, all emotions is just a game of our mind, being happy is easier than most people could ever accept.
Been a great day, from start till end, Got a netbook, webcam with my sweetheart, sat with my sweetheart, giggled with my sweetheart. A day havent felt or seen in ages.
Life is so amazing when you look at it from the bottom of the barrel, everything becomes a blessing, reality as you may see, is a gift of life.
Just live on and hope and pray for the best, like the Lady who won the race in the finish line today (I cant remember where and who), nothing is over till it crosses the finish line.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Not a day to remember
After such a long while, after all the new things that happen, finally securing a place here and there, yet another thing slips through the cracks.
All the quizzes and projects keep piling up, smart asses show their really just dumb asses, the time for truth is around the corner, not soon before long a new hierarchy saw arise again.
It seems to be devastating that in 2 days, a mood, a feeling, a passion can change. As recent as a Sunday, a new landmark was achieved, a testament to our strength & our bond. But nt all things last long enough to be enjoyed.
I simply pray its a thought, a thought derived from hate, form dissatisfaction beyond all comprehension, these 'friends' these o so wonderful friends, they do nothing but get in the way, they do nothing but cause more drag, more weight, more burden. Now i know why dating is a 2 person thing, its never meant to include the opinion or presence of another, especially if she is a pest to begin with, a failure of a new magnitude.
Maybe its the pressure, maybe im a jerk, I might be overbearing and smother u. Bt when u think bout it, my life is starting to feel like im just single, seems to be the saddest thought i had in a year. Sorry
All the quizzes and projects keep piling up, smart asses show their really just dumb asses, the time for truth is around the corner, not soon before long a new hierarchy saw arise again.
It seems to be devastating that in 2 days, a mood, a feeling, a passion can change. As recent as a Sunday, a new landmark was achieved, a testament to our strength & our bond. But nt all things last long enough to be enjoyed.
I simply pray its a thought, a thought derived from hate, form dissatisfaction beyond all comprehension, these 'friends' these o so wonderful friends, they do nothing but get in the way, they do nothing but cause more drag, more weight, more burden. Now i know why dating is a 2 person thing, its never meant to include the opinion or presence of another, especially if she is a pest to begin with, a failure of a new magnitude.
Maybe its the pressure, maybe im a jerk, I might be overbearing and smother u. Bt when u think bout it, my life is starting to feel like im just single, seems to be the saddest thought i had in a year. Sorry
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Finally we won one back^^
Its been a long long time coming, merciful god has granted us the deed we dreamt of for almost an eternity already.. I truly am Emphatic over this victory.. A great celebratory joy^^.
The 1st time in more than an odd year.. We had the chance to train together.. Face to face with one another.. Seeing as if you were glowing with an aura.. Ur beauty still astounds me to this day.. My Heart races when I look into your eyes.. I feel as if you are sharing with me your soul.
Your smile like beauty ive never imagined.. A sight of joy beyond anything I could dream.. A warmth and comfort only true Love may bring.
Sweetheart today is our day.. No matter what happens today will still be in our hearts.. As the day we took one back from the demons.. The day we stood triumph when hope was so scarce.. I thank you for being there for me.. I thank you for having found me.. I thank you for Loving Me ^^
XOXO
The 1st time in more than an odd year.. We had the chance to train together.. Face to face with one another.. Seeing as if you were glowing with an aura.. Ur beauty still astounds me to this day.. My Heart races when I look into your eyes.. I feel as if you are sharing with me your soul.
Your smile like beauty ive never imagined.. A sight of joy beyond anything I could dream.. A warmth and comfort only true Love may bring.
Sweetheart today is our day.. No matter what happens today will still be in our hearts.. As the day we took one back from the demons.. The day we stood triumph when hope was so scarce.. I thank you for being there for me.. I thank you for having found me.. I thank you for Loving Me ^^
XOXO
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Live for Life? Or Live to live?
If there is motion, there is bound to be friction. I say this coming from a long stem of existence.. seemingly going on day by day like clockwork, routine and mundane task laying waste to all expressions within the mind.. Leaving an empty shell.. Thoughtless, Expressionless, Emotionless, Useless.
Forgetting the purpose of all my goals is a tragedy in its own sense, slowly fading away the brimming dreams once so close to my heart, left only with the ravages life is yet to take form this weary soul.
I recently learned, it doesn't take a big day to change your life forever, because true to fact is, everyday is a bigger day, the only easy day was yesterday.
Today is a day of renewed faith, in myself, in my believe, in my Love. You really make it real for me. I Love You form the bottom of my heart in everyway i could possibly think of..
But from today the only thing we can do sometimes in life is to just Let It Be
Forgetting the purpose of all my goals is a tragedy in its own sense, slowly fading away the brimming dreams once so close to my heart, left only with the ravages life is yet to take form this weary soul.
I recently learned, it doesn't take a big day to change your life forever, because true to fact is, everyday is a bigger day, the only easy day was yesterday.
Today is a day of renewed faith, in myself, in my believe, in my Love. You really make it real for me. I Love You form the bottom of my heart in everyway i could possibly think of..
But from today the only thing we can do sometimes in life is to just Let It Be
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Curse or Inner Demons?
Its been one week only from my last update, as fittingly like clockwork, something went wrong again.
Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.
This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..
Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..
I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..
Seems like every time a fortunate event what so ever is mentioned here.. Another comes crashing down in the matters of less than one miserable week.
This may be paranoia creeping in, or a weaken will in a damaged soul. But every time I manage to screw it up with whatever way i deem fit, if it wasn't for medication, I think ill be a serial killer right about now..
Fittingly, all authorities are on me again, all past haunt me, all the deepest regrets seem to manifest, as I choose to do what was 'right' instead of what felt right.. Needless to say, my sense natural sense and judgement is the Occam's razor I so heartily desire.. But i digress, unmercifully i choose to listen to this cerebral that for a strong suspicion might have suffered irreversible harm as a child..
I can only pray things recover, for every hurt leaves a scar burned into my soul, I may have grown numb to it.. But it is just a manner of time b4 it kills me..
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Been 3 months.. kinda an eternity
Been almost an eternity since i've updated this blog, so many events passed since the last time.
A new semester is coming already, been kinda exhausting the last one, too rapid fire to cope, did not as well as i knew i could. Hope this time things will be different.
This Chinese New Year was kinda special and all that insignificant as well. A new atmosphere to enjoy, yet lost a tradition close to heart.
One the other side of life, an amazing time has passed, we've gotten so much so much more stronger, kinda enjoyed quite a romantic ride in our trip to Hard Rock Hotel, thanks to Aunt Mei..
Our love blossomed, carried forth a new dawn after a mild tide of darkness cascaded upon us, we thought we had lost it, that we we're stale and withering. Thank the holy god for the holidays^^
Had kinda a mass gathering to watch Alice in Wonderland also, truth be told, it was very nice and it reminded me of my youth n being silly.^^
Lifes been a bit different lately, learned to keep the bad things away, why waste brain cells pondering over unrelenting medial complications when they are not worth the hassle.
Moved to a new place, kinda twice the size of the 1st home. Can't imagine how sad I am of leaving there, but I was gonna have to leave sooner or later, lucky i got to still stay in Penang only.
Only hope I can spend the rest of my days making her the joyful person she truely is, help her lift this chip off her shoulder, or at least help her carry her burdens.. Being loved by my sweetheart is one of the greatest treasures and grandest gifts i could ever hope to receive. N i try everyday, for her to feel how i feel back.. Love You
A new semester is coming already, been kinda exhausting the last one, too rapid fire to cope, did not as well as i knew i could. Hope this time things will be different.
This Chinese New Year was kinda special and all that insignificant as well. A new atmosphere to enjoy, yet lost a tradition close to heart.
One the other side of life, an amazing time has passed, we've gotten so much so much more stronger, kinda enjoyed quite a romantic ride in our trip to Hard Rock Hotel, thanks to Aunt Mei..
Our love blossomed, carried forth a new dawn after a mild tide of darkness cascaded upon us, we thought we had lost it, that we we're stale and withering. Thank the holy god for the holidays^^
Had kinda a mass gathering to watch Alice in Wonderland also, truth be told, it was very nice and it reminded me of my youth n being silly.^^
Lifes been a bit different lately, learned to keep the bad things away, why waste brain cells pondering over unrelenting medial complications when they are not worth the hassle.
Moved to a new place, kinda twice the size of the 1st home. Can't imagine how sad I am of leaving there, but I was gonna have to leave sooner or later, lucky i got to still stay in Penang only.
Only hope I can spend the rest of my days making her the joyful person she truely is, help her lift this chip off her shoulder, or at least help her carry her burdens.. Being loved by my sweetheart is one of the greatest treasures and grandest gifts i could ever hope to receive. N i try everyday, for her to feel how i feel back.. Love You
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Good things come when you wait, Lets celebrate
Happy New Year one and all, having been the 1st post of the new decade, a more optimistic approach is applied to this occasion.
Having celebrated today the 23rd of Jan with my family(sort of) i've come to enjoy appreciate this month as a true new beginning providing me with opportunities never once thought possible.
Spending this meaningful day of month with my most meaningful someone;) we have enjoyed a blissful day of joy that was supposed to be unobtainable from several constrictions Particularly our individual outside lives that partake a substantial portion of what time is left for each other.
So enjoying today in our own memorable fashion, there is little to complain cept for a few ill advised decision by yours truly. ><
Having started a new year, a lot of in-life events and occurrence have received considerable reshuffling.. A friend had switch out of college, as another 2 had choose to be one. The deck of life is not the order it once was, for that I am delighted with.
Chance for new friends from old faces, confidently coming out of the self imposed shell. Becoming more than once thought could be, with just a little confidence.
In terms of the other side of life, Ive been entrusted to be an assisting instructor or how its called.. Gaining duties and responsibilities that once thought not worthwhile, a true new turn from just trainee and injured competitor.
A new hope of going the extra mile from where I was, heres to the New Year and New Decade.. Would love nothing more than to spend it in your embrace.^^
Having celebrated today the 23rd of Jan with my family(sort of) i've come to enjoy appreciate this month as a true new beginning providing me with opportunities never once thought possible.
Spending this meaningful day of month with my most meaningful someone;) we have enjoyed a blissful day of joy that was supposed to be unobtainable from several constrictions Particularly our individual outside lives that partake a substantial portion of what time is left for each other.
So enjoying today in our own memorable fashion, there is little to complain cept for a few ill advised decision by yours truly. ><
Having started a new year, a lot of in-life events and occurrence have received considerable reshuffling.. A friend had switch out of college, as another 2 had choose to be one. The deck of life is not the order it once was, for that I am delighted with.
Chance for new friends from old faces, confidently coming out of the self imposed shell. Becoming more than once thought could be, with just a little confidence.
In terms of the other side of life, Ive been entrusted to be an assisting instructor or how its called.. Gaining duties and responsibilities that once thought not worthwhile, a true new turn from just trainee and injured competitor.
A new hope of going the extra mile from where I was, heres to the New Year and New Decade.. Would love nothing more than to spend it in your embrace.^^
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