It's been a long year, with so much gone by it feels even closer to the start then to its end. Filled with so many ups, and likely as many downs as well. But nonetheless, a year that wasn't wasted anymore.
Talkin bout my life, you would see it in many parts in different angles, so much knowledge and experiences were gained, most of them mattered, most of them cherished.
With my darling piggy, we really did grow up together again, never had i thought i would ever been able to talk you home to meet my parents, but we did it. We beat the odds, and never looked back.
In the whole of 2010, we had to endure a 'guardian' peering over our every move, constricting every fiber of our freedom to enjoy ourselves, and to express our love. In this year, it was no more. Sure it meant the lost of so many in a breakaway so radical it shaked the foundations of our society. But we prospered, and to say I feel bad it happened would be no more than a lie.
As to think, from then and from there 2011 was a great start, we had great moments together and shared many wonderous adventures, each sweeter than the last, particularly in the later months of the year, where our fortunes were even greater with ur dads new job. We finally could get what we dreamed about for so long. Today marks our post 950th day together, and frankly it would never had shared it with anyone else.
Speaking of our fortunes, nothing this year i can say would b greater than our trip to cameron highlands, certainly alot better to the beach but equally fun. The trip there had so little promise, so few pockets of hope dwell in the arrangements and the supposed way things were meant to happen. In a bless of fortune unparalleled, IT ALL WORKED. The journey there and the way back was not all enjoyable, but the paradise that is so high above the seas was without a doubt.
In cameron itself, our luck struck in the chance to share the same transport, share the same roof, we were literally able to spend almost every waking moment together. Aside from me feeling like im young again, sorry about that><. But the experiences we shared with out trips around the hills, with our convoy of 15 people if a single vehicle is astounding, rivaled only in mumbai. But what was more amazing was what we could do as a couple we never could before. Suffice to say, it was as great a trip as any of us ever will remember.
Secondly we move on to my 'career', I can say after 2 1/2 years i did finally graduated my Diploma from Disted, yet humorously havnt had a ceremony or my cert presented to yet. I would say it all went so very well, it all went so very right, with group growing, with the group becoming a family. But then, it all had to change, misunderstandings, disputes, petty uncivilized arguments robbed me of the ends light. But then again, I wouldn't regret of of you. Sure some of you i miss, but i doubt any of you miss me at all. So good ridden if need be, I have no qualms about the lost of your companies. Break-ups, tear-ups and moving on with life, the group is in oblivion. So the final moments of the birthdays and the time we can spend together in June and July were indeed out last.
Moving on with my life, I carried on in a different college, we need not of dutying like a lab monkey, I moved to KDU, and I hope i studied the correct thing, cause that raises doubts on its own. But the people there are different, aside from severe food poisoning from 5 day stomach flu and RM170 in summons, its quite alot of fun. Formed a new group of 12, made many many new friends that we couldnt cuz of the restrictions in our time table, but we all came to know one another, and it is a gang to be remembered just for their talents, their maturity, and their efforts and daring to work for their spoils.
In the matter of friends, there is one I would like to forget and I thought was gone, she meant so much to me before, and still means some to me now, but I know today, I meant nothing and will never mean anything to her. Sad, but deserving, I can say i have closure, I can calm my endless rage of what ifs, what might be and what could have been. When I find out that even after you finished with your longest relationship, that I thought maybe I could have you as a closer friend, but know I know I never had a chance, and that in pain brings great release and relief.
Moving on, a mention is to be given to my old K800 of sony ericson, A brand that exist no more. Replaced with a Samsung Galaxy S2 at July 17, right after final finals and right after anytime there is to share with disted, truely not destined with them. But still a status symbol nontheless.
Now moving on to my Grandmother, who fought valiantly against her ailing health, succumbing to it in the end, all from a simple toe infection discovered in the irony of your last birthday, cruel is fate, never ending in fortune, never giving in mercy.
You will be dearly missed grandma, for the time you spent with us is longer than any other, you managed to out live grandpa by 7 great grand children.
On the same note, its been one year since Dino has passed, his face, his warmth and his companion fates with time and memory, never again shall i ever get to pet or hug you, but never again do you have to bear the burdens of your pain. Rest in peace, we'll never forget you, or your brothers and sisters before you.
2011, a year alot longer than we could ever remember, in the global view, mass changes and great movements in the world we know has come, and more yet to come, looming in the dark ready to materialize. But from my view, it has been a great year, one of which I lost many, and gained many more. This of which includes my hairs ridiculous length it is today. This was a year i cannot seem to stop praising, for FINALLY letting me win, for finally letting me be in a class matching what I know is my potential, sure measures and risk had to be taken. Sure some may have been regretted. So goodbye 2011, you have been amazing to me, and you fianlly show me life works, because I Did It My Way.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Its been a long while since
Well its my birthday, finally 20.. N it took a while, but i made it^^
Been quite a year, gained and lost so much in this journey, those who i lost i miss you
Those who are still with me I love You even more.. Especially you my dear
You've been me through thick and thin and i am eternally grateful, there is no words to describe how much you mean to me now :-*
Lets hope there is a brighter future on the road ahead, long live life.
Been quite a year, gained and lost so much in this journey, those who i lost i miss you
Those who are still with me I love You even more.. Especially you my dear
You've been me through thick and thin and i am eternally grateful, there is no words to describe how much you mean to me now :-*
Lets hope there is a brighter future on the road ahead, long live life.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Rest In Peace my Lil Prince
21st December 2010, 23:45 marks the day Dino left our home, but will never leave our hearts.
Sorrow for the lost of a truely loved one, graced with his presence for the past half decade, unending is his deed to us, our homes, our hearts.
Struggles against the circle of life deemed too strong for this gentle being, succumbing to the fates, forever another mark in history, lore, and legend.
Glorious was his life, blessed with fortunes the world beholds, gifted with passion to care, the heart of an angel, the face of a kitten.
In this short span in the test of time, in the many adventures and journeys you have trekked, explored you're world and rip all of its spoils.
You have only brought endless joy, never have you asked for anything in return, only the embrace of a loved one.
Maybe things might have been different, maybe things could have been changed. But cruel is the hand of fate, to end ones existence in his prime.
Forever shall you're name be engraved in the souls of all of us, blessed to have meet you, cared for you, LOVED YOU.
Rest in Peace, Dino
Sorrow for the lost of a truely loved one, graced with his presence for the past half decade, unending is his deed to us, our homes, our hearts.
Struggles against the circle of life deemed too strong for this gentle being, succumbing to the fates, forever another mark in history, lore, and legend.
Glorious was his life, blessed with fortunes the world beholds, gifted with passion to care, the heart of an angel, the face of a kitten.
In this short span in the test of time, in the many adventures and journeys you have trekked, explored you're world and rip all of its spoils.
You have only brought endless joy, never have you asked for anything in return, only the embrace of a loved one.
Maybe things might have been different, maybe things could have been changed. But cruel is the hand of fate, to end ones existence in his prime.
Forever shall you're name be engraved in the souls of all of us, blessed to have meet you, cared for you, LOVED YOU.
Rest in Peace, Dino
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Time really does change ALOT
This is slowly turning into a monthly journal if i don't start updating more constantly.
Well this month is one to remember, finally made the leap of faith and jumped into the other group, negating all the previous drama queens, pansys, idiots, and the occasional spoiled brad.
This new group is interestingly different, not exactly home, but a comfortable place to be in non the less, sure i'm not widely accepted, but neither was einstein in his early years.
Strangely enough, I'm lab dutying 17 hours a week, talk bout child labour, but its all for money, the cornerstone of life.
Well talk bout romance, my sweetheart has finally passed another life long important event, her PMR, i can't begin to tell you how happy i am for her to finally lift this burden, and what ever may happen, this wretched monster will never be a burden anymore.
Had a great day with her yesterday, the 1st time i went to prangin in more than 1 odd month. Finally pick-up GTA Liberty City Stories, Finally getting to intimately hug her, something i din do since august at least. It was a memorable one.
All the while to this, ive picked up a bunge of new ways to express what is happening now, but i would like to do it in song, so heres the clip that really means something to me, strangely i don't know why.
Enjoy^^
Well this month is one to remember, finally made the leap of faith and jumped into the other group, negating all the previous drama queens, pansys, idiots, and the occasional spoiled brad.
This new group is interestingly different, not exactly home, but a comfortable place to be in non the less, sure i'm not widely accepted, but neither was einstein in his early years.
Strangely enough, I'm lab dutying 17 hours a week, talk bout child labour, but its all for money, the cornerstone of life.
Well talk bout romance, my sweetheart has finally passed another life long important event, her PMR, i can't begin to tell you how happy i am for her to finally lift this burden, and what ever may happen, this wretched monster will never be a burden anymore.
Had a great day with her yesterday, the 1st time i went to prangin in more than 1 odd month. Finally pick-up GTA Liberty City Stories, Finally getting to intimately hug her, something i din do since august at least. It was a memorable one.
All the while to this, ive picked up a bunge of new ways to express what is happening now, but i would like to do it in song, so heres the clip that really means something to me, strangely i don't know why.
Enjoy^^
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I'm Sorry.. You know I love you rite?
This post is fully and sincerely dedicated to my beloved, I know I usually behave like a jerk, Act like an asshole, And conduct like a bastard. But you always stick by me.
I know life has been tough, Like the earth is splitting and you just can't find your ground, and one way or another people keep snatching it away from you time and time again. Unforgiving is reality, treacherous is life. But in a few weeks time, it will all be a distant memory, a tall tale told to those who are fortunate enough to hear you spin this yarn.
I truly am sorry, to kick you when you are down, to suffocate you when you drown. I mean no harm in my ways of expressions, yet compulsion and obsession tends to get the better of me when i lack contemplation in my actions.
I pray as well, that your burden may be shared amongst all that indeed hold you dear to their hearts, even though it may seem you are all alone, angels linger amongst your presence, forever shining the path onward and forth, trying times may we challenge the hardiness of our souls.
I kid you not with literature and poetry in this post, for my mind may only express itself in ways only you should understand. I love you my dear, all apologizes, all for forgiveness, as i pass on my condolences for this torment you have been put through this year. But hold your ground, the hour is near, and onward shall come the dawn of day through the dark of night.
I just pray, when the dust settles, in an eon that will past, we are still one. As I can sing this tune to you, when the hairs on your head fade to gray.
My love, I can give you nothing, but my heart. Forever and always, your hopeful husband
XOXO
I know life has been tough, Like the earth is splitting and you just can't find your ground, and one way or another people keep snatching it away from you time and time again. Unforgiving is reality, treacherous is life. But in a few weeks time, it will all be a distant memory, a tall tale told to those who are fortunate enough to hear you spin this yarn.
I truly am sorry, to kick you when you are down, to suffocate you when you drown. I mean no harm in my ways of expressions, yet compulsion and obsession tends to get the better of me when i lack contemplation in my actions.
I pray as well, that your burden may be shared amongst all that indeed hold you dear to their hearts, even though it may seem you are all alone, angels linger amongst your presence, forever shining the path onward and forth, trying times may we challenge the hardiness of our souls.
I kid you not with literature and poetry in this post, for my mind may only express itself in ways only you should understand. I love you my dear, all apologizes, all for forgiveness, as i pass on my condolences for this torment you have been put through this year. But hold your ground, the hour is near, and onward shall come the dawn of day through the dark of night.
I just pray, when the dust settles, in an eon that will past, we are still one. As I can sing this tune to you, when the hairs on your head fade to gray.
My love, I can give you nothing, but my heart. Forever and always, your hopeful husband
XOXO
Monday, September 6, 2010
This aint my week
Been a long long week, kinda not my favourite to say least.
Started the week after coming bak from a nice hiking trip, went to college 3 hours early cause I forgot class starts at 1. Went training and waited till 7 30 to start, not more than half a dozen adults, and 3 blackbelts to boot.
2nd day wasnt that bad, brought my brother to visit my aunt one last time. She was not so well anymore.
3rd day was a treat at the start, a bit more fun here and there. Nite time however was not as joyous, my aunt passed in the evening.
4th day in college sucked, not much happened, ceremonies from the cult began, just went along with it.
5th day, my birthday eve, went trainin less than an hour tat nite, loved her gift and the note. The nite wasnt so well, went bak very late, got lost in the darkness, lucky came bak fine.
6th day,my Birthday, well wishes from friends and a heartfelt one from my sweetheart. Dino went missing starting this day of all days. Went to the ceremony for last call, assholes were on our backs for 'helping out', like i haven't done enough u bastards. The whole day wasnt filled with much. My darling took her singapore test though, she din get it, kinda very glad but kinda sad><. Hope shes fine with the results.
7th day, woke up 6 50 n got ready, attended the funeral, things went on n evryone cried, well almost.. 11 16 moved out. Cremation was an hour later. May she Rest In Peace. Tried out the cult, insanity from formality, bowed 50 odd times in 5 mins. Mom quarreled with my bastard uncle over money she lend him, it aint a small amount.
This week ended in a not so spectacular way. My Bday spend in mourning, lost an aunt, cat still MIA, uncle reviewed hes near bankrupt, saw the ugly side of my 2nd aunt, and can basicly conclude 80% of family suck.
Fought with my darling out of stress and frustration. I'm so sorry dear. Hope with all my heart and faith, this week aint like the last. I love you.
Started the week after coming bak from a nice hiking trip, went to college 3 hours early cause I forgot class starts at 1. Went training and waited till 7 30 to start, not more than half a dozen adults, and 3 blackbelts to boot.
2nd day wasnt that bad, brought my brother to visit my aunt one last time. She was not so well anymore.
3rd day was a treat at the start, a bit more fun here and there. Nite time however was not as joyous, my aunt passed in the evening.
4th day in college sucked, not much happened, ceremonies from the cult began, just went along with it.
5th day, my birthday eve, went trainin less than an hour tat nite, loved her gift and the note. The nite wasnt so well, went bak very late, got lost in the darkness, lucky came bak fine.
6th day,my Birthday, well wishes from friends and a heartfelt one from my sweetheart. Dino went missing starting this day of all days. Went to the ceremony for last call, assholes were on our backs for 'helping out', like i haven't done enough u bastards. The whole day wasnt filled with much. My darling took her singapore test though, she din get it, kinda very glad but kinda sad><. Hope shes fine with the results.
7th day, woke up 6 50 n got ready, attended the funeral, things went on n evryone cried, well almost.. 11 16 moved out. Cremation was an hour later. May she Rest In Peace. Tried out the cult, insanity from formality, bowed 50 odd times in 5 mins. Mom quarreled with my bastard uncle over money she lend him, it aint a small amount.
This week ended in a not so spectacular way. My Bday spend in mourning, lost an aunt, cat still MIA, uncle reviewed hes near bankrupt, saw the ugly side of my 2nd aunt, and can basicly conclude 80% of family suck.
Fought with my darling out of stress and frustration. I'm so sorry dear. Hope with all my heart and faith, this week aint like the last. I love you.
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