Don't know why

After all the joyous things that happen since the last update..

After Sept 5 in KL..

After Prom Night in Gurney Hotel n heading to F.A.M.E on Upper Penang Road on Sept 12th.. made new friends.. took kinda a lot of photos.. dance like crazy.. drank till face din't have feeling.. It was 11 cup i think..

Great times.. REALLY GREAT TIMES..

But I'm updating on one of my lowest days of the month..><

Like the title said.. I still have no idea why but i'm still really worn out.. broken down again.. lost most of hope somehow..

Maybe its the road problems.. The car dents and scratches.. Maybe its the fat bitch that forced me to reverse into the main road.. Maybe its the FUCKING RETARDED BITCH ASS neighbour that keeps annoying my mother and constantly causing us emotional stress..

But I hope I can feel better soon.. Somehow

Turning 18..

Officially 18 years old a few minutes ago in GMT +8 time.. 4th September

In a short span of life, I got a lot of things that i thought couldn't be done in time completed in a surprising matter.. Here is a list of them

1. Learned to ride bicycle
2. Learned to ride motorcycle and finally got a license
3. Got car license
4. Got best grades in SPM in both sides of family(vanity showing)
5. Got my blackbelt(still 1st Dan, but good enough)
   
6. Finished alot of great games(except FF IX still on it after 7 years)
   
7. Went on a real 1st date
   
8. After all those years of searching, finally found my real soulmate
9. Fell in true love (you know who)
10. Had 1st Kiss (same person)
    

So, with the dawn of a new day, I only hope and pray that Life goes on as once before but only getting better each day.

Hope can be in it for the long run with my Darling Sweetheart Daydreamer and get a better standing in college in more than just results.

Lastly, truely pray deep down that the Health, Fortune and Well being of the people I know and Love live long and Prosper.

Good Night..

You would think Ive already seen rock bottom

Today wasn't the best day of my life.. failed my bike test the moment i on the engine.. knew i wasn't fit enough to pull it off..

Still kinda sick from the weekends.. terrible condition..

Came back home and the computer proved it was dying a slow death.. tried every possible solution.. but the only answer is more spending..

Night time looming around and received a msg of ill news.. Now going on a break with my beloved panda bear cause her dad in getting volatile.. Truely hope it doesn't just end like this..

I'm pretty sure this is rock bottom.. So the next way is up..

Weary Minds and Tired Souls

In a weeks time.. Reality has once again forced its remorseless hand upon us by which only in dreams can they be true.. No mercy is to be spared to the soul who wishes for good will..

A 26/7/09 Sunday morning of Bliss turns to a Nightmarish Hell at night in a matter of just short moments like scenes in a movie.. As if the world wasn't volatile enough for our rendetion..

Dealing with cause after cause with clause after clause.. allotted with dues unpaid form the past.. spending days and nights striving for comprehension of amassing a basic 100cc bike that of which i can carry with my bare hands..

Facing ghostly ghouls howling from the foregone.. mixed feelings of blessing and curse from an earlier endeavour which sorely turned sour in matter of moments.. But merely sheer stubborness was enough to keep the flames of hell risen and lid..

Now far down this road today.. Bearings of pain forcing its spin upon me.. Presenting an open invitation of deception into laid traps for the foolhardy to toll upon.. Draining the very fiber of being left in the mind to fight on as bravely as before.. Leaving nothing but remnants of history to give comfort to an inevitable losing battle against the odds..

Hoping you will be strong enough to carry on as I have stalled for the moment.. Hoping i may arisen to continue behind you once again.. Or succumb toll of time and fade into the empty halls of What could have been or Might have become..

I pray with the bottom of my heart light shines upon darkness.. but for now.. we submit to the grasp blindness and wander ourselves wayward..

As you said.. NeVeR GiVe Up... NeVer Back DoWn

Cause Indeed To Us Nothing Else Matters...

18 July 2008.. A day for my history book

A few days late on the post, but went to Bon Odori on Sat.. with my friends.. Meet my Sweetheart there.. as well as a few long lost friends.. including one that looks like Fabio now ><..

Never saw fireworks so up close before.. sounded like grenade launchers going off one by one.. Stood so close, had to sleep flat on the floor to see them overhead.. Bt I also had someone in my arms for that wonderful moment..

Spent most of the night gazing into the sea from the coast line, sat on the barrier.. nothing but the cool sea breeze in my hair.. and my warm comforting darling wrapped around my arms..

Spent the rest of the night almost the same way.. Standing still here and there.. with a crowd that big.. there was little point of going so far when what you wanted was so close..

Had a great night.. cause what matters is the little things.. like flowers.. cuddling.. and explosives from ancient China

P.S : Sorry to my friend for being bored to tears with me.. Treat him to a movie next time..

Waves changed the landscape again

Here i thought i was riding a tide taking me where i wished to go, but sudden pattern shifts left me wondering where i'm at once again..

New avenues have been opened and previous ones have been closed for good, problem is if i commit to these, will i drown when the tide shifts yet again..

I mean i spent so many hours searching and confirming that i have moved in the right one this time.. SO maybe its just a temporary set back and the truth will come out again..

But i never really liked what i got myself into anyway, here now and way before..

So why not just keep going and not look back, i'm still alive right?

Reality Bites Back

After a whole month and more of just joy and bliss, reality comes back to haunt me for my past.

In the past month, i've dwelled deep into my own world, a place where i had only my thoughts to worry about.

But recent events have slowly revealed themselves as a collective burden built upon by negligence, I can no longer just float around like I did with you, for I have left Earth because of you.

Slowly finding footing back and i'm gonna have to hit the ground running.

Just din't thought something like that would affect me so strong ><..